Let's see what have happened to me recently (well, only if you wanna see..). I screwed my life, my grades, my school life, and probably, my future. I hope the last one wont happen. I dont have any desires to study anymore since my latest physic score. I was the worst in my class, i barely could believe it, but it was true, too bad to be true, but it was.. real.

And today, the remedy days have just started. it goes for 4 days, and i dont think i'll guarantee any cures for my grades. I do realise the importance of being care about my report book, i just cant move anything on, my brain, my leg, even my heart.

one thing i wanna do. it's crying. i just want to scream out loud, cry, and maybe, jump out of the balcony.

If only suicide doesn't cost any sins.

if only it's painless.